Okay, this is probably my favorite thing about Dance of Shiva.
The way they just show up.
What happened yesterday morning wasn’t a massive life-changing epiphany thing.
More of a mini-epiphany.
It was a gap. And I stepped into it. And all was good.
A small thing, really.
In my Kitchen Table program we needed to add a new forum board.
But there was nowhere for it to go.
We’d gone over it in the Group Leader meeting but without getting anywhere. Opinions were divided. I didn’t really like any of the options.
Sat down to work on it and instantly felt annoyed.
I said, hey annoyance. I said, what’s going on in there?
My annoyance said:
This is stupid. It doesn’t make sense to put it here. It doesn’t make sense to put it there. There isn’t an opening. No matter what you do, it won’t really work.
So I went to do Dance of Shiva.
Three minutes. Super fast. Super hard.
And then what happened:
I came back.
Had a glass of water.
Paced around the room.
Knew what needed to happen.
Found the opening.
It was obvious.
I had to set up a new section. And I knew exactly what to call it and where to put it and how to describe it and how it would work.
This thing that had been bugging me for half a day. Done.
It’s one of the most exasperating things about Shiva Nata, actually.
Sometimes the realizations you have are so completely obvious the instant you realize them that you cannot imagine how you didn’t think of them before.
So it seems more like you’re the idiot than that Dance of Shiva did it’s brain-connecting thing again.
It’s like my friend who spent weeks agonizing about a problem she had. Then did Dance of Shiva for the first time and woke up in the morning with the answer.
But the answer was so clearly the right thing to do that she couldn’t remember what it was like to not have known it. And felt like an idiot for not coming up with it sooner.
It was such a shivanautical moment that I had to share it.
I couldn’t find the gap and then there was the gap.
This is essentially why I’m so excited about teaching Dance of Shiva to the roller derby girls. Because when you’re a jammer going through a pack (or a blocker trying to help your jammer through), finding the gap is the only thing that matters.
There’s always an opening. There’s always space.
Anyway, it was cool. I don’t know if it comes across in translation but the moment was beautiful.
It’s just a matter of your brain being willing to find it.