Here’s the problem with epiphanies.
Those Shivanautical moments of bing and zing that show up and make you go oh.
They’re really hard to explain to anyone outside of your head.
Because a lot of the time they sound kind of obvious.
It’s kind of like big spiritual truths.
Like you have a serious moment and you realize that everything is made of the same stuff.
But no matter how you frame it ….
- It’s like physics! The same components come together to become different shapes and forms. A tree is a tire is a doughnut. I am a tree and a tire and a doughnut!
- It’s like kabbalah! Everything is made of light!
- We are all one. We’re all the same, at the core of things. It’s just permutations!
Yeah. Your enormous life-changing understanding is just probably going to sound kind of ridiculous. At best.
More likely, it’s going to come across as something that everyone already knows. Or has heard. Or doesn’t seem like a big deal.
And the reason it’s a big deal to you is that you have had a deep, visceral understanding.
Your entire body knows it. Your consciousness knows it. Your cells know it. Your heart knows it.
You are in the process of internalizing something really huge. And it’s so huge that it can’t be explained without sounding like the biggest, most cheesy cliche ever.
Same deal with Shivanautical epiphanies.
The biggest, most surprising and wondrous ones are really hard to explain.
Sometimes this is because the actual information isn’t that much of a revelation: it’s the depth at which you get it that is the new thing.
And sometimes this is because once you have the new piece of information, it’s so completely obvious that you can’t really remember what your brain/life was like without it.
And sometimes this is because the new way of perceiving things is so compelling and so deep that it doesn’t get words.
The other day I woke up into a serious Dance of Shiva moment.
I knew it was a Dance of Shiva moment because everything made sense. And also because I was feeling kind of annoyed that I hadn’t spent my entire life acting on this thing I knew to be true.
But I couldn’t put it into words.
It was sort of like … “everything is good.”
Everything has good at its core. And I can break down any situation and take out the essence which is good, and use that essence to make the next thing happen.
And this is what needs to happen. And Dance of Shiva will help me do it because the purpose of the practice is to break things down into their essence and restructure itself. From the good into the good.
Couldn’t explain it beyond that. And to be honest, my thinky brain wanted to start finding all the intellectual holes in this.
And instead, I decided to just take the essence of it. And let it plant seeds for my day. I can find holes later. I’m good at that.