Or a lil’ Piph, as Kimberlee suggested.
So two days ago I had a tiny sparkle of a post-Shiva-Nata realization.
Definitely not an epiphany. A gasp of a something leading up to one.
It occurred to me after my practice that what I’m focusing on (or trying to emphasize) in my life right now has two parts.
It’s about grounding and stability on the one hand, and flow and movement on the other.
And of course both are related, blah blah blah.
The connection part wasn’t the realization.
The realization was more that I want to focus on this in my home. And that I wanted to think about bringing grounding and stability into my sleeping area (hence the new mattress obsession).
And about bringing flow and movement into my workspace.
But all that is the background to the actual moment of bing that has been sparking all kinds of things today.
So then yesterday morning I was doing my morning ritual of visiting each corner in Hoppy House and connecting to the qualities I’m working on.
Because, you know, wackiness is a great way to start the day.
And I had a total Shiva Nata moment. A mini-epiphany of the best kind.
A quick surprising rearranging of the internal matrix.
Just the way we like it.
Okay. Here it is.
I was standing outside the door of my bedroom. The space that I want to bring more grounding and stability to.
And realized it was flanked by trees.
There is a tree on the mezuzah (you might have to wikipedia that one, sorry). And a tree is the central theme in the gorgeous painting I bought from Leah Piken Kolidas, which hangs on the other side of the door.
Right. The space I want to ground is surrounded by trees on both sides.
Also the room itself has lots of wood. And a brown floor. And all the other colors are first and second chakra colors. Hello, grounding.
Why no, I’m not done boggling at myself yet.
So I went into the office, thinking about what would have to happen to make that space more about flow and movement.
And then realized that it’s all about flow and movement.
In fact, I have four separate pictures of boats in there (only one is a pirate ship, interestingly enough). Plus the walls are … blue.
Like water. And symbolically it’s the fifth chakra which is all about inspiration and connection and communication and various flow-centric stuff like that.
Oh, and I have a painting by Sarah Lacy of a seascape.
My focus: on something that’s already there. Awesome.
I’ve been spending a lot of time and money and energy on new and better ways to negotiate my relationship with space.
To get better at feeling at home in my space.
And all of these things are helping. It’s all about incremental change.
But while all this change has been infusing my life, my brain hadn’t caught up with it.
Hadn’t internalized just how much has actually shifted. Or just how much of what I was looking for was already present.
The conclusion-ey bit.
Obviously the “everything you need is already inside you” thing is a
coffee mug slogan a known spiritual truth type of thing .
But it was pretty cool to trip over the reminder that it really is.
Because everything I needed was already there. In seed form.
My job isn’t to bring grounding in or to make flow happen. It’s just to notice what is and attune to the qualities that are already there.
It’s about moving from what I’d thought was the question:
“How do I bring more of these elements and qualities into my space and into my life?”
… to the real question:
“How do I notice and remember that my space already contains what I want and need from it?”
It’s about moving from the old thing of bringing something in to the new thing which is accessing something that’s already present.
Bonk bonk bonk.
Off to play with Captain Obvious. And to do another ten minutes of Shiva-ing it up. Because I can’t wait to find out what’s next.