Well, for the record, I also hate going anywhere uncomfortable, which is why I’m a big fan of the Yes-No-Yes plan.

Do something I can do easily, follow it by giving myself permission to flail around and suck at something for a few minutes, go back to doing what I like.

Because we all (mostly) hate doing it wrong … but that’s where the epiphanies are. And hey, at least no one is laughing at us because we’re actually TRYING to get it wrong.

And oh lord, the number of things I have knocked over. I don’t even want to talk about it!

And we won’t talk about knocking over my mug of tea – fortunately NOT into the (extremely expensive and generally lifesaving, or at least wrist-saving, ergonomic) keyboard of my computer, but the mouse was a tad damp for a while… (Now I make sure there’s nothing I can hit whilst I’m flailing about.)

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Just read your Starter Kit handouts and then did 15 minutes of Level I with my eyes closed. My brain is spinning around in my head.

I’m off to take a walk somewhere – dunno where, but someplace new. Ha!

Big internet thank-you hug!

@Marissa – Yay, you! I know it sucks, honey. I know. Really I do. And yes, that’s when all the best results happen.

When I finally got to the point that I was pretty good at Level 6, do you know what happened?

Level 3 was ERASED. Entirely. Like it never was. Even though I’d taught it and worked it and could do it in my sleep. Gone. Finito. No more Level 3. I had to go back and re-learn it again, cursing and bitching the whole way.

But man, the epiphanies. They cleaned me out. It was awesome.

@Grace – Ha! Awesome. I know. I also hate being wrong.

But isn’t it great that now you have permission to do it wrong because it’s the only way to do it right?

Sounds like you have the classic problem of people who started with the DVD instead of the Starter Kit. I’ll upgrade you! :)

A huge pattern for me is *doing it right*. Whatever “it” is, I’ve got to do it right. Being wrong? Eeek! (running shrieking from the room)

Hah. Hohoho. Heeheehee. Snort.

Funny how I find myself wanting to stick with just the first few practices on the DVD, because I’m mostly “doing them right.”

Yep. Ain’t it grand?

I had my absolute “worst” Shiva Nata session yesterday. It was as if my brain dumped all my prior practices and I was brand new. I was the ShivaNata equivalent of those little baby horses that can’t stand up yet so they’re just wobbling about everywhere and it’s funny and cute but definitely not “good walking.”

I found myself actually laughing at my absurd flailings.

But then after the session, my head was actually, like, humming. It felt a bit like what I imagine being high feels like. And then I had this huge productivity BURST for about an hour, and then was inexplicably exhausted and had to nap.

And then later that night, I played Guitar Hero better than I’ve ever played before and had a whole bunch of random insights into things that just had never occurred to me before.

Which I’m pretty sure were Shiva Nata aftershocks.

It was my worst session, which means it was probably my best session. And it made me laugh–always a good thing. :)

I heart being bad at Shiva Nata. I really do.

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